“Dad, what’s the rush? This is just impossible. I am not ready for it now!” She exclaimed! “This boys really good. You don’t get to see such ones around much. And everything is ready here, all the family guests from abroad are in India too. Even your elder sister is here this time, after this she may not be able to visit India for three years.” “That’s all secondary dad, but an arranged marriage? I don’t think so I am comfortable with this idea.” She let him knew her doubts but this left her dad really shocked. ” It was you who said that you need an arranged marriage, remember? I asked you before around a hundred times if you have someone in mind let me know, we’ll sort it out. But you said to arrange as per my wish. Then too, even if you are in a doubt now, you can meet this person and talk to him. I liked him a lot, even you’ll like him. And if by suppose, you have someone else in your mind, let me know I’ll definitely consider your choice first.” His father assured all her doubts. But she was confused. How can she let her dad know about the person with whom she had just met two days back and that too only thrice! On what basis can she tell him she loved him by only passing few glimpses. And what if that boy wouldn’t reciprocate her feelings? “Oh no, he asked me if I am engaged, right! That means even he was interested in me. So what if he didn’t exclaim his liking, I can talk to him first about it, I can ask him about it clearly.” She thought with a ray of hope and asked her dad for a day’s time to give him the final answer about the same.
She went running along the whole house. It was all crowded with guests from all over the country and abroad. She went around the outer rooms and the inner but he wasn’t anywhere to be seen. After searching each corner for around three hours she returned to her room, almost fell on her bed and cried her heart out. She had the day of hope till today morning, but the source was nowhere now. She loved him, she knew that. She could feel the pain of not seeing him anywhere, not knowing whether he thought about her in the same manner, not knowing if could ever meet him again and if they would be able to marry each other. It was her first love and that too which was left incomplete. That night she cried for her new founded pain. For the experience of first love in it’s saddest form. May be they weren’t destined to meet, may be it was written in destiny that she would find only hurt in her first love! “Oh God, please let him be forever in my destiny!” She prayed as she lay on her bed with tears falling on her pillow as she mourned for her incomplete first love!
The air conditioner in the room was in it’s lowest degree. The room was chilling cold yet she was perspiring. The delicate fragrance of flowers in the room was making her dizzy. She was clad in her pastel coloured pink wedding dress, all beautiful but her heart was somewhere else. She have agreed for this wedding without even seeing whom she had married. Although her relatives and aunt and dad insisted that she met him once before Te wedding, but she told them she loved surprises. While in reality, she just couldn’t face herself in the mirror when she knew she was marrying someone whom she didn’t love. Let alone the thought of facing the man himself. She didn’t knew how she was going to cope with her life from now on, but this was her test. Hope she gets along well. She shut her eyes tight to stop all those tears coming in her eyes.
She heard the footsteps that arrived towards her. He slowly upturned her face towards him but her eyes were tight shut. “Am I so ugly that you don’t even want to take a look at me even on our wedding night?” She opened her eyes instantly all wide with shock. She forgot all her crying and kept staring at him for moments uncountable. “Ohh! Then am I looking so handsome that you can’t take your gaze off me? I bet I should be the one doing that thing right now.” He asked with a light smile on his face and she looked away with a blush. “You? So you are Salian?” She was too shock to even speak something. “Yes, Mrs. Salian, I am your Mr. Salian. Nice to meet you on your wedding with me.” He was now laughing at her. “Why, you didn’t even asked to meet and see your future husband? Why did you get ready to marry me even when you didn’t know anything about me? Why Naina, what was the reason for it?” He asked her silently, looking straight in her eyes. “I didn’t care whom I was marrying. I searched for you for hours the next day of that wedding. But you just vanished. That’s why I didn’t ask anything about the person I was getting married to.” “And why were you searching for me for hours?” ” To tell you that I loved…..!” She stopped dead between her sentence and looked at him aghast. He was now smiling widely, looking at her eyes and enjoying the flow of blush on her face. “You loved what?” He asked to tease her. She started looking away with a soft shy smile on her face.
“I know it’s my fault. I had to speak to you something about this before I went to your aunt and dad! But I was so glad to know that you weren’t committed and knew very well that aunt would definitely grab you a good husband from the same wedding. That’s why on the next morning I called up my parents and made them speak to aunt and fix everything. I had to rush because you know we have to leave for England the next week.” He explained her everything and she was finally beaming from inside knowing that finally her first love was her life partner after all. “But you didn’t complete your sentence, though? You said you loved something, can I know what or who it was?” And that was just the start of their love story!
They were back in England after spending a week at relatives place. His apartment was just what she dreamed of. After a warm welcome from his parents, they headed towards their room. He started showing her their room when she stopped dead on her steps. There lay a small pink book neatly as a showpiece on the side table of the bed, she started moving towards it. It reminded her of something, the scenes that she couldn’t even remember existed in her life started playing back. She picked it up and read it slightly loud,
Your smile raises my hopes everyday!
Your eyes are the reason for my smile,
I wish you never ever go away,
For I’ll love you beyond miles!
Then she glanced at the photo frame just beside the book, it made her go numb with shock. She went back in time, years back…. she was staring at him from the balcony….. threw the book towards him and ran away!
Salian took the book gently from her hands. ” Do you know what this is and where it’s from?” She turned towards him surprised and he said with a smile, ” I had a crush! My first crush. She was a small girl, a teenage girl, may be just out of high school. She used to stay opposite to my flat that I shared during my engeneering days. I used to daily go to my balcony to get a glimpse of her while she did her work on hers. Though I liked her very much, but I couldn’t approach her for the same. She was very small you know and even I was studying at that time. But I always felt something unique when she was there. I never knew if she liked me too, but it didn’t matter at that time, I just had a secret crush on her and that was enough. And one day, I caught her crying in the balcony, it caused me pain too and then she threw this towards me and went away. Never to come back! I read it and got to know even she liked me as much as I did. You see, she was my first crush and I have read it somewhere, you never forget your first crush! And I am the living proof of it, I’ll always remember her in my life.” He finished and turned towards her and caught her crying with her tears rolling down her cheeks. “Hey Naina, please don’t cry! I know you are hurt. But your role in my life is entirely different. I told you all of these, because I didn’t want to hide anything between us and you are the love of my life. I agree I felt the same attraction towards you as I felt for her, I don’t know what it was, but it felt as if you are just the same person that I have met years back and was always with me in all these years. So please don’t be insecure, I would love you always, no matter what happens, always!”
Little he knew of why she was crying! Even she had it read it that day in the train, you never forget your first crush! But, she did. She forgot about it all during these years while he remembered each moment of it. And she remembered reading some more lines of the same book, what is destined to meet you, will meet you in all circumstances! So strange it was! Both of these lines of the same book had totally different effects on her life. Salian came back in her life after going away from her twice because he was destined to meet her and even though he remembered his first crush till years ahead, she forgot all about it!
Someday, may be someday she’ll let him know that she was her first crush! Today, she was too overwhelmed with the sudden confession from his part and the reminiscing of the past events. But someday, she’ll let him know how Destiny played hide and seek with them. Till then, may be she can solve the dilemma that whether they are each other’s first crush or first love?!!